Thanks for your replies!

Traveller, thanks, you are right, most of the time I can cruise along without worrying about it too much, I am a fairly optimistic type, but I have reached that point now where it is overwhelming. I do know know however that we'll get through and this was just what I needed to get it off my chest.

RumpledElf, great advice, I have actually been checking things out with my program officer coming up with a backup plan should I take the new role. I have found that I can do one course online and one externally, so looking better already!

Thanks girls, I really appreciate you taking the time to read and respond :-)