I don't know what to do.

I currently work half day job during weekdays. It's nice .. I go in at 12 noon and go home at 5, when I have to pick up dd at day-care. Pay is good, really good.

I have just submitted my mat leave for three months yesterday. (That's all we get .. unpaid) The girl that works with our leave called me in this morning and said that my boss told her to tell me that when I come back ... I have to work full-time Reading between the lines: Come back full-time or don't come back at all. Yes, they will raise my pay, but that is not what I am worried about.

DH has a shop in town, I work for him too (well, you know how it is ... I do the accounting for him ect ... cheap labour ) So my days start at 7am, then I take dd to day-care at 8am. I then do the shop's accounting stuff, or my shopping, or we go into the city to buy stock, or drive to pick up potatoes, or do bank and post .. that type of stuff. Then at 12 I go to work. Get home from work, get dd, dinner, bath, bedtime and then I do the cash-ups for the day and go to bed at 11:30pm. Full day.

What has me worried is that I won't be able to give much attention to the shop once I start working full-day again. I usually went to gym in the mornings too, so I would have to cut that out once back from mat leave also ... and that were the only thing that kept me sane. AND with two babies, I'm not sure I would get the needed rest. DD is still not sleeping through the night and are demanding. NOW when dd had a bad night, I can take nap in the mornings if all my stuff at the shop is up to date. AND my work really suck I don't like my boss, don't think he likes me (looooong story) .... I think this is his way of getting rid of me. I have only work for about two hours, then it's BB-time or I just hang around getting lazy.

DH and I are going to have a nice chat about this tonight. I think I might just have to get myself another job, but half-day jobs are sooooo difficult to come by. And then the pay won't be this good. ATM I get paid to sit and do nothing. I'm not lazy, but there are just not enough work to keep me busy for a whole day!!!! And I can't do all the shops accounting here, because the cashregistars are linked to the main computer at the shop .. I have to do the good's received stuff on site. I can do some accounting here, but it's also about spending time at the shop. Have to keep your hand on it.

DH actually wants me to stop working, to consentrate on the shop, but like our economy is right now .. we can't afford it. We are still pay off loans from the shop, so I HAVE to generate an income. We can sell the house and rent ... that would enable me to stop working BUT the market is totally and utterly dead, so we have to make due.

How do you win the lottery?????

This turned out more of a moan ... thanks for reading. I think my best option is to just look-out for anonther job and negotiate my hours.