Sorry I have been MIA. Just not in the mood to post much at the moment. Have been having up and down days. A few down days actually, so I don't feel like doing much of anything!
I have had another friday and saturday night on my own. Over feeling so lonely. I had a meltdown again this morning, so DH took the kids out to buy a birthday gift for a bday we have to go to tomorrow arvo. I hate that it takes for me to meltdown like that before he gets that I'm stressed out. I just had a bath and slept for a while before they came home. I will be going back to the doctor next week to get a referral to a psycologist or something. Tried the eating well, exercise, vitamins thing that the doctor suggested and although it might have helped a bit. it's not enough.
The kids are well (this week!) Lily has just gotten over another double ear infection. More antibiotics and ear drops. Poor baby. She's being very trying too. I think alot of the time she's bored. I try to do stuff with her, but she's wanting me to be with her all the itme and I just can't. Besides the fact that I can't because of my own state of mind, I can't because I have other things I have to do too. And Liam to look after as well. She's throwing tanties alot and screaming and whinging soooo much. I have smacked her a few times, although I am so so trying not to, but I just lose my patience and when I'm telling her not to push Liam for the 1000th time that day and it doesn't work....well I'm sure you guys know what I mean.
Liam is teething and is a bit coughy with a runny nose and the stinkiest poos ever! He also has a nappy rash I just can't get rid of no matter what I do. But he usually gets it when he's teething. (Seriously any doctor which says that teething doesn't cause kids to get sick is an idiot!) He's a menace too, into absolutely everything he can find and he's such a terrible climber. He's stuffed the computer a few times cause he climbs on the table and bashes the keyboard. I now have to put the dining table chairs into the kitchen which is gated off so he can't get them. Such a PITA! He's at the stage where he will pull everything out of drawers and cupboards too, so the kids room is constantly messy with clean clothes and nappies which they have pulled out of the drawers and cupboards. I've stopped going off a them and packing them away now. I leave it till they are in bed and go in then!
Trying to eat well and exercise, not only for my mental health, but I really need to lose weight too. I'm over being so fat. But because I am such an emotional eater, it is proving difficult to keep on track! The exercise is easy, going for a walk on my own is good me time, but the eating, well....lets just say I have just devoured a chocolate bar, and still haven't had lunch :erdface:
Milly, TTC, huh?? Yay!!!!!!! I'm still in two minds if I would like another or not. As Liam gets older the reasons I don't seem to be begining to outweigh the reasons I do. But it's not really even a possibility since DH doesn't want to at all. I would love to be pg again. I have a friend who is pg at work and it's making me clucky. Another girlfriend brought in her 10wk old the other day and OMG....cluck cluck!! Good luck hun, hole to hear a preg announcment soon!!
Danielle, I looked at the photos of Brianna on FB when she was a baby, oohhhh, so cute!! She looks alot like Tobias does now. No denying they are siblings that's for sure!! My two don't really look alot alike at all.
Jen, I hope the ms has gone now....the downside of being pg!!
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