Morning Everyone,
I have not been around the past few days. Just been having some issues.
Kobi is getting better so thats one good thing. She is going through a bit of a sooky clingy phase but we are getting through it. Surprise surprise her sleeping is down the gurgler again. Thanks to her getting sick she is back to old tricks. So now I just do what I need to do to get through each night.
She is sitting up really well now so I am pleased about that. She spends alot of time sitting now. She also did something really cute yesterday. She was eating a rusk and i went up to her and opened my mouth and said "Ahhhh some for mum" and you know what she did??? She took it out of her mouth and put it in mine with a huge grin on her face. She shared!!!! She does it all the time now. Its absolutely adorable.
I went to the ACU (australian catholic university) open day on Sunday. I came away depressed!!!! The course itself looks unreal. But very very involved. But the lecture was absolutely chocca block with ppl so it looks like about 400 or more will apply for a course that has 40 places :(
Also when talking to the lecturer afterwards it looks like they will not even bother looking at my application. They said that with mature age students they tend to take those with uni degrees first, then partial degrees and then go on to the tafe degrees. But usually by the time they get to those applications...they have got their quota so they don't go any further. So basically with me having no other education..I am not even going to be given a chance. It actually makes me angry becuase thats discrimination but what can I do???
Anyway I came away from the open day feeling deflated. Also becuase they had ladies there with a stall talking about the STAT and she was saying how hard it is and how it is very difficult to get over 90% in the STAT (which is what I need to get in to this course) She said to get over 90% in the STAT is like the equivalent of getting a 99 TER (high school score) So I feel pretty annoyed now. It's like all the things I have been told is crap.
I am still applying to the courses though and I dont care. It's worth a shot becuase how do I know if i don't try right! But I am aware that its going to be slim. I will just have to study other things in the meantime.
Julie - Like you, they have changed all their stories on me and I am officially confused. It's ****ed me off but I am applying and going with the theory that whatever will be will be. I am also more afraid of the actual application process rather than the course! I have been told to make sure I draft my application first and then make sure when i apply I have heaps of time to myself. Just put all of my focus on that one thing at that time.
I hope that you sort out your course soon and hope that you can figure it all out.
Well in other news DH and I almost split up last week! Things are still a bit sketchy but hopefully they will all go ok. I just hit the roof last week cos he told me he was most likely not going to Tyra's school concert and he wasnt going to be attending my Mothers surprise 50th I am organising becuase he had football committments and that he needed to put that first! Now I realise they are in the finals but I dont give a toss. I am his wife and his kids and me should come first. So I let him have it. It is not just that one comment though. It is stuff that has accumulated since we began dating. Football has always come first and he really needs to sort that stuff out and get his priorities right. I am also sick to death of having to speak to him before I spend a cent and yet he can buy whatever he wants whenever he wants. He admitted that he feels that is ok becuase he is the breadwinner and I stay home with the girls. So he has more right to the money than me. And that will change when I work full time!! I know I know ladies!!!
I told him that he is totally un realistic and ridiculous and that either all that stuff has to change or I am out the door. We argue over these issues constantly and we have done for the past 7 years. I feel frustrated that if he cannot learn and these issues keep repeating after 7 years....then when will they ever get better if they will ever get better at all. I told him I cannot keep him afloat in this relationship anymore and that he has to start being an equal part or he cant be in it! There is much more to it but we would be here for a week.
I am not interested in being the kind of woman who says "This is the last time" about 500 times. I am saying it once and thats it. I told him it cannot happen again and I cannot do this one more time. I am too tired to keep doing it.
So he knows things have to get better or our marriage is over.
Things are ok for now...so we will just see how it goes. This time he has to make a conscious effort to help and compromise otherwise he looses us.
Dont get me wrong..I am not saying I am perfection and he has to change himself..he just needs to stop and re assess his priorities and put me and the girls before himself and footy. He is not a bad person either. Dont let me paint that picture. A huge part of why he is like he is is due to his upbringing. I am just refusing to let that be his excuse now. He is 28 years old and can learn!
He doesnt want to lose me or the girls and so he said he is committed to making it work.
Ok I better go cos I am going to pass out from needing to eat.
Enjoy your day and I am sorry for a selfish post.
I hope everyone is ok and that all babes are healthy and happy.
