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Go to bed Becky!!
Id planned on goin to bed early for about of 'good fun time'...but noo wasnt to be..Craig isnt even home from work yet...something went wrong and now he cant come home til its fixed...ment to end at 5pm...
l would pay all the money in the world to be normal again!
Kim your as normal as the rest of us ;)
How's going not having craig at home, Chels & Jas being good for you?
Hey Kim - You should be getting some hard earned rest too! Im tired, but still find it hard to settle down. (Says as DH i snoring in the bed next to her!) Kim do you see any improvement with your PND? Have you decided to go on meds?
I dont feel normal though...i 'see' how happy you all are...your stories, your babies developments...and i sit back and think....ok so thats not me...thats not Jasmine...why?
But then i realise...every baby is different, every mums see's their kids in their own way, and maybe cos of my PND im not able to see the other side of life. Really thats sad and heartbreaking, but hey ill pull through :)
I cant sleep without Craig....so id be laying there listening to the monitors if i went to bed. Not having him home through the day has been tough. The girls act up, chelsea refuses to listen, wont eat, wont sleep. But when daddy comes home she is fine. Then i think she must dislike beoing with me, but more probably cos she is gets excited to see daddy home..not cos she is bored of me...IYKWIM?
As for improvement...nup..its gotten worse. Im now classed as severe risk PND....hence why im monitored....but now i feel as if 'Kim is a danger to herself and her girls'. Which im not...i have actions and plans in place should i loose the plot..LOL
After having the team come today and them offering the most useless help, support and info...im taking the hardest step in my life...im going to get AD's. May not seem a big deal to some...but for me...its like the last resort to get my life on track again.
Its a hard topic to talk about...it really needs to be understood fully....i love the support i get..and i cherish it.....i really do love u girls...i just feel odd...your all so happy and things seem great. So i have to be the same...get Kim happy and then go from there.
Next month Craig and i are going away for the weekend. Just the 2 of us. PIL flying down to take care of the girls. I think our marriage has been rocky...and we need the break to get us back together....im looking forward to it.
Gee i could keep talking all night...but i wont...i should leave it there :)
Kim - Its great that you are getting help and that you are open to trying the AD's. Its hard I know. I take a very low dose but just admitting to myself that they might help was a big step. After discussion with my doc we kinda both came to the conclusion that mine isnt PND its depression (had it beofre I was pregnant) but it became more pronounced after pregnancy/birth as the stressors were more numerous. Depression runs in my family and I was diagnosed with it when I was 15 but came off meds when I was 18. Something I maybe should have discussed with my Dr during the pregnancy I know. Anyway - I find that they help me but being open to the fact that they may help made it easier for them to work IYKWIM
Anyway - wish daycare was open on the weekends! Caitlyn slept from 6 until 245 this morning and then down again at 315 and is just waking up now!!! She even missed her 5 am wake up that she normally does!! WOOHOO Even the garbage truck didnt wake her. And I think if I hadnt gone in (was freaked out!) at 215 she may have slept longer.
Anyway she is awake now so I am guessing she will be a little hungry.
Nickers - My "ME" time....I read a magazine, took off the nail polish that had been on my toes from the pedicure I got when I was something like 37 weeks pregnant, took a bath, did a treatment on my hair and a mask on my face.....I spoilt me!!!
Have a good day all! MWAH
Kim you doing a great job, At least your trying to get help even if the help isn't that great.
Hi all
Thanks for your messages of support. It shouldn't surprise me that MIL would put her 2cents worth in as she is always doing it on every aspect of her family's life. It is a shame really cause now I will just not tell her things and she will miss out.
L does his big sleep in the evening. Last night it was from 6pm to 12.45am. After such a big sleep I think he must be hungry and hence feed him. Then he was up at 4am and while we both catnapped while feeding he didn't go down until 7am. I tried to settle him at 4am but he was just too restless and did take the feed. I really want to get him sleeping through the night. Should I be waking him more during the evening?
Brissy girls - meet up at 11.30am outside the cinemas at the Hyperdome?
Haven't had brekky yet, so must feed myself..
hi all
have been MIA for a bit. the big fella has been keeping me on my toes and exhausted.... at the same time, bad combo.
lilyangel - dead right, your SS was moi!
a special thank you to my SS for the present i now call 'the drool book'. i've never seen so many things to do with chocolate. pity with my time crisis all i get to do is drool over it and imagine back to my preggie days when i could cook up a storm. i have no idea who you are...
kim - our babies might be doing interesting developmental things but i'm pretty sure i can speak for most of us when i say i have absolutely carp days where i can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. i pray for his 'big sleep' so i know the day is over. mostly i just tell myself he never does the same day twice and i know tomorrow will be better (even if it's not).
in other news, i seem to have fixed the oversupply problem. i lounge back and put the guzzler face down on me for the initial letdown then slowing straighten up. not much fun if i had to do it in public but at least he's back on the boob. the expressing for all the feeds was only making me more of a dripping cow and p1ssing me off.
i also notice that my coffee intake had been increasing to 2-3 cups in a day -- no wonder i had a tweak on my hands. i am limited to one cup now and i've noticed he's much calmer during the day. who's drinking caffeine and how much?
rebecca77 - how good does getting the old nail polish off feel? it was one of the things i had a boo hoo sob about in the car a month ago so DH got the remover out and took it off for me because i was far too boogedy to do it myself. (now i have ingrown toenails from kicking that fuggin stroller wheel, but that's another story altogether).
hope everyone is well - and all things being equal - i'll see the briz mommies tomorrow at the hyperdome. hopefully we can go inside tomorrow because it's stinky and sweaty outside thanks to this bodgy weather.
Hey all!
I'm sooo tired today, not sure why, but may have something to do with Joel waking up chanting at 3:45am! His noise woke up Keiran who I ended up feeding at 4:15am just so I didn't have to get back up again later. Yuck!
Kim - Depression is such a horrible thing, you really are doing a great job trying to deal with it. Don't feel bad for trying AD's. PND is a condition that sometimes can only be treated with meds. I really hope they work for you and you start to feel like your old self :hug:
Rebecca - Great to hear Caitlyn has been sleeping so well for you!
Saffi - I would try giving Lachlan some wake time in the early evening, then he should learn to do his big sleep a bit later. I feed Kieran around 6:30pm, give him some play time and a bath then put him to bed at around 7:30pm. I feed him again at 9 - 9:30pm and put him straight back to bed and he usually sleeps through until 5 - 5:30am. I feed him then put him straight back to bed.
Have a great day everyone!
ETA - Viv - Good to see you back, I've been wondering where you've been! That's great you have sorted out your oversupply probs. Re: caffeine, I usually only have one cup of coffee a day after a feed. Don't want to risk it keeping Kieran awake!
Viv nice to see you posting again :) & you did an excellant job with our SS Maddi adores her book.
Trish hope you get some better sleep tonight.
Thanks Mo, just have to say how cute Maddi looks in your ticker photo!!! How cute is that little tutu?!
Awww thank-you :D
I just had to buy it when i saw it, just too cute not to buy.
Saffi If L goes down at 6pm most nights, maybe you can wake him (I know sounds awful) at 9 or 10 for a feed...that might get him through till morning. Just have to keep the feed quiet and put him straight back to bed. Also, I find with Max the better he sleeps in the day, the better at night....is L sleeping well during the day? Max woke at 7am, was fed, went back to bed at 8 for 1 hour, we played for 45 mins, he fed again, then back to bed at 10....he stirred at 11, back to sleep and is still asleep. Pretty sure he will be up shortly...and if he isn't, I will have to get him up coz I am going to the optometrist today... he plays more in the afternoon, but will need an arvo kip for about 30 mins.
Anyone else having more problems with their eyes after pregnancy? Mine are weird!!
Hi All,
I love reading all of your posts however, I do get lost when they post a new thread because I can't go back and check things out... LOL
Kim - It sounds like you are doing a great job and good for you for trying the AD and hopefully you feel back to normal really soon.
VIV - I have 2-3 cups of coffee a day (naughty me) but I am addicted.. It doesn't seem to affect Jackson (13 weeks) too much, he is sleeping through the night so it's not keeping him awake. If I had to give up my coffee, I don't know what I would do with myself.
Things with me are fine Jordan (2.5yrs) is in daycare today so it is kind of "my" day which I just love, it also gives me time to spend quality time with Jackson which I don't really get to do with Jordan at home - so I really love that.
Another bonus is I have found a play centre / cafe in my town which is opening on Monday. I will be heading there sometime next week to check it out and let Jordan have a run around so I am really looking forward to that. I also booked Jordan in to Kindagym as well so he should get immense enjoyment out of that and gives him something extra to do.
Shame I can't make it tomorrow for coffee. When you say the Hyperdome - where is that? I should hopefully be free for the next one so I can meet all the lovely Brizzy ladies.
Take care.
Micky xxoo
Julia - Yep, my eyes are TERRIBLE now! I have heaps of trouble reading signs and things now :( DH can't believe how much they've deteriorated, but he blames it on all the time I spend on BB LOL!
Micky - How nice to have some quality time with your bub! You can find old threads by going to the Baby Buddies main page (https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...splay.php?f=72) and scrolling down the list to find it (i.e, the last one was named Babies Born October 2007 #12). The mods close the thread, but you can still read it IYKWIM.
Yep thats right Nerida! Hyperdome at 11:30, outside cinemas.
Sorry everyone not too many personals - there's just so many pages to read through!!
Viv - glad you've got your supply problem sorted. I had a HUGE over-supply problem with Emily, mainly because I couldn't read her signals and was offering the boob so often. I would literally spray across the room and there was a lot of vomiting and tummy ache for Emily. It settled down but definitely peaked around the 3-4 month mark. Caffeine: 1-2 cups of tea a day. Usually only one but today it's been two and a chuck of chocolate so Harry's hasn't had a decent long sleep as yet.
Anyone coming along on Monday? it will be my last for a month. We are flying out to the UK on Thursday.
Hi All,
My eyes are also terrible. It does improve though, when it does I am going for a test.
Kim - good to see you again and yes it was me :) My Mum made the necklace especially - she sells them as well as bracelets and earings.
Viv - good to see you again. Glad you got the gushing sorted :)
I am on decaff coffee but real tea again. I hated decaff tea during pregnancy YUK!
I am on a mission to get a Phil and Teds double pram. A friedn in Brissy will sell me one for $200 but I just have to get it freighted down here. Working on it!!! Eliza is impossible and I need to have her contained if we venture to the shops.
I have just been researching parenting courses for us to deal with Eliza's behaviours. Looks like one starts in Feb every Tuesday, luckily they offer a creche for her while the course is on or I would not be able to go. Hope it helps - it is getting worse not better!
Ciao,
Forgot to add - Amara is 6kg! got her weighed today. She is almost 14 weeks, Eliza was 21 weeks before she got to 6kg!!!