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MD, I suppose one positive to take from it is that with the lump being there all that time and only now finding out, is that you could have been riddled with it by now if it were aggressive kwim?
I think we sort of talked around this when I saw Dr Mr Compassion the other day (tho I am having trouble remembering the specifics). Anyway I've decided to take a chill pill rather than obsessing about every detail, kwim? It doesn't really make a lick of difference if it's breast cancer or lymphoma or a ten-headed alien hatching in there. It doesn't change the work I need to do to heal my life. It is enough for me to know about how the drs have arrived at decisions about my treatment, and the rest of it belongs with the mysteries of the universe which even medical science is not equipped to understand. RE the feeling helpless - well don't. You know your support holds me up in a tangible way. Just as much now as it did when I was pregnant and in such anguish at my aloneness. xxx