thanks Bella
i don't know that anyones pain is more or less than anyone elses - it still hurts, no matter what

i will admit to pulling away from this group (and BB as a whole) because of the issues i'm having - i love that everyone is happy and having more bubbas, but it is very hard to not let the unfairness of our situation get to me - it's easier to pull back a little than to try and put on a brave face when i simply don't have the spare emotional energy kwim?

have left work today. had a headache since last week - today it got worse, wrist hurting, and i was having visual issues which i believe are partially from the headache but more to do with an anxiety attack. now that i am home and just spent some time snuggled up to C (and about to do the same with E) they have eased significantly. C has opto appointment tomorrow so i'll check then as well