Oh hon, I too can empathise with you on this one I've only had the one c/s but have the same issues (except for the multiple scar thing)
I know how you feel about the clothes thing - I am not used to things not fitting properly. It's not so much that none of my old clothes fit me any more, if that was the case I could just size up. But it's really annoying not being able to wear anything fitted around the stomach, I feel really limited in the styles I can wear. And my chest is one size bigger than the rest of me (oh boy was I surprised to find that this is a 'problem' lol) so nothing really fits properly anyway, it's too big in some places and too small in others. My issues aren't so much body issues (I'm quite happy with my body when it's naked, luckily it's hot up here ), but clothes issues.
And funnily enough, breastfeeding seems to have had the opposite effect on me to what most women have, instead of losing weight, I've put it on. I'm sure my previously fast metabolism has gone completely kookoo-gaggah on me. *sigh*. (But perhaps the chocolate isn't helping, who would have thunk it, eh?)
I do know what you mean about not really being in a position to do much about it right now, and having to re-evaluate your idea of your own body image. I was one of those annoying people who could eat as much as I wanted (I've always been a healthy eater in general but have never worried about what I eat), never exercised and stayed a size 8 without any effort, and always swore that if that ever changed I wouldn't deny myself the things I enjoy to change. Very easy to say when you are happy with what you have. So now it's causing me to evaluate whether I do actually care enough to do stuff that I don't particularly enjoy (like go to the gym) in order to change it.
Sorry, this wasn't meant to be a 'my turn to vent' post, but I hope that it helps to know that you're not alone. Hugs to you gorgeous one, we'll just have to find a way to make tummy-verandas uber-sexy. Perhaps Kate Moss (or whoever the current it-girl is) will get one and they'll become really trendy.
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