Does anyone else find periods after miscarriage traumatic? Not from a TTC viewpoint, but just the visual side of it?

I feel alright about AF coming, it's actually a relief as it's been almost a year, but seeing the clots just reminds me of my miscarriages, and freaks me right out. There's not really anything I can do about it I suppose. Misery/freakoutery like company though I guess