I float in and out of this section of BB every now and again. Now more often than for a long time it seems. Reading more threads than I used to, mainly in the Metaphysical and Paganism, I am feeling touched by more and more of everyone's stories and thoughts. This has reignited my interests and desires to learn more about the metaphysical, and to perhaps involve myself more in religion (I was Christened as a baby, so feel a connection to Christianity, but feel guilty for want of a better word, for *maybe* wanting to get involved now after never really being in to it, even through my parents. At the same time, feel a pull towards Paganism).

Tonight, as I have been reading threads in this section, I have shed a few good tears. That's never happened before in this section. Maybe its because I am tired? But I'm always tired. I have so many thoughts about wanting to know more, questions, and some frustrations sometimes as to 'why can't I do that?' type of thing.

I don't know if this is in my head so much lately because someone is trying to tell me something, or what. I feel like I'm just rambling on, perhaps hoping that an answer or logical thought will come to mind. I feel like I should have learnt more from a 'friend' before she moved. She left me some books, gave me other books, and also a set of her oracle cards. I don't know if I want to use them, since they were hers though.

Anyway. I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has posted about anything here, especially those that I have replied to, for basically getting my attention back here again. On Thursday night while I was waiting to get my special spa treatment (Christmas!) gift, on the coffee table in the waiting area, was a few books and trashy mags. I was drawn to a book completely underneath another, about angels. The Angel Bible. I got right into it (thank fully they were running late!), and have since ordered myself a copy from the bookshop. I never buy new books!