I needed to come on here tonight as I don't feel I have anyone to talk to about this who might understand.

My sister who I am very close with, told me yesterday she is 10 weeks pregnant. I had a m/c 2 years ago now and we haven't become pregnant since. Her news seems to have hit me like a ton of bricks. I haven't felt this down since my m/c. I can't really explain why I feel so bad. I was pretty much expecting her to get pregnant as they were trying but it still didn't prepare me.

Her and my mum were actually very worried about telling me - they were really caring and got quite emotional. I started crying I think because they were getting teary for me but I said I was happy for her & asked a few questions. But I couldn't say Congratulations which I feel bad about, but just can't yet.

I saw her and her hubby today at a family do which they told his mum the news. Again I was really quiet and didn't even say anything to her hubby.

I'm sorry I acted that way but I just can't stop this feeling. I feel flat and really down but on the other hand I'm happy for my sister because she has also wanted this for so long. I feel like I don't have anything to look forward to and feel empty.

My DH doesn't like seeing me upset and seems to be over it all and doesn't want to talk much about it. And the thing is, I don't really know what to say to him.

I hate to upset my sister and mum because I know they're so happy but also upset for me. I hardly talked to her today because I just don't know what to say. It's so weird.

Just wanted to come on here and try to get out some of my feelings. Thanks for listening.