I don't know if this is the right place to post this...

Anyway... last night, I watched an episode of House... and it was really, really upsetting to me, as the baby on there had everything that Noah had.
The baby on the show survived because it's kidneys were fine.
I didn't expect to get so upset over a TV show... but, things lately have been making me think a lot about Noah... it was the 1 year anniversary of his due date the other day... then, I bumped into the midwife who delivered Noah... I haven't seen her since I delivered Noah... and then this.

Sometimes I think it never gets better... I miss my little baby every single minute of every single day... but some days, it is like I am deliberately reminded that Noah isn't here and that is so upsetting to me.