My first M/C

I was very surpised how I was feeling after I found out I was pregnant, it also truly amazes how in touch with your body you can be with out even knowing you are. I have heard other women say that something just didn't feel right while pregnant and then they lost thier bub and until you experience it yourself I couldn't really undestand what they meant by it. But as I said I truly did feel that something just was not right, I felt like I was not pregnant and like the tests I had were all wrong cause I wasn't pregnant and could not get my head around that I was going to have another bub. Please don't get me wrong in saying that as I did want another bub but something was holding me back in believing that I was going to have one. I kept putting these feelings down to being unsure if I wanted more children before I decided we would TTC with my DF. But it 's obvious to me now that these feelings were because I obviously knew that this one was not meant to be. In my heart I know that my darling and dearest friend in the world whom was taken tragically from us in 1993 is now taking care of our bub and they are both with me everyday in my heart.
I'm sure that next time I will have plenty of anxiety when and if I fall pregnant again, every trip to the loo I will be to scared to look and every twinge will be horrifying the first 12 weeks I will be a total wreck and it will pass by so slowly. But I will listen to what my body is telling me and pray that everything goes to plan.
I am a positive person and I really don't survive well living on negatives so if I concentrate on the positives and keep my chin up whatever is meant to be will be. I know there are many women out there that are going through alot worse than I am and i just wish them all the happiness and sticky vibes in the world.

Well my dr has given us the all clear to start TTC again in August/September this year as I am to have my chicken pox and whooping cough vaccinations first due to having a low immunity to chicken pox which came back in my blood tests but on a good note I am immune to Rubella which is great. So both DF and I are off to the drs yet again tomoro arvey to have our shots.....
And yes I am counting down the days and months until we can start TTC and praying that it all goes well next time around. FX.

Clairesmummy - awesome! Good to get your vaccinations up to date. This gives you some time to just chill and get yourself ready for the TCC ( which I hope will be really quick for you). Did you have Hep B/C/A testing done? My immunity was low, despite keeping it up to date. Oh well, a task for me. I hope that you just are able to enjoy the relative tranquility of this "gap time". Make the most of it girl!

Thanks Dory,
Yep all testing was done with my blood tests and chicken pox was my drs only concern for me. Been reading alot of dif articles on the net about early MC and so on and OMG I have never really been into the whole science of falling pregnant there is so much to take into consideration when TTC. And I just thought you did a bit of bedroom dancing when you were ovulated and if you got lucky that's great if not you just keep trying. It has all really blown my mind away and I feel like a bit of a fool not knowing what I know now. Guess my MC has been a huge eye opener for me in many areas of my life and I am now noticing that I have changed dramatically since my loss, which is a great thing I might add. I do want another bub more than anything and I have started looking after me alot more and taking my life alot more serious.
I must say a huge thank you to everybody that has given me advice over the past few weeks it is greatly appreciated along with everybodies very kind words or support with it I would not of coped at all through my loss. I may have lost our bub but I now know that there was a greater need for my bub else where in this world and it has taught me a lesson in my life that I will cherish forever.