Just need to get my feelings out there and out them at eye sight hoping it may ease the pain im feeling after losing bub.
I would of been 9 weeks pregnant when I found out that I had actually M/C. Had a brown discharge sunday morning then a little blood monday morning, my DP raced me into the hospital which is 30kms away and they sent me in for an U/S. The U/S found no baby only what looked like a clot inside me. The dr informed me that I have had a missed M/C and they can't tell me when it may of happened. I have since had some spotting but only very light nothing that even resembles much of a bleed. I am to have another U/S Tuesday then back to the Dr Wednesday to see if they will be sending me for a DC and to get my blood test results.
This bub would of been my second but it was my DP first bub to be. I am feeling like I have let him down hugely even though he keeps reassuring me this is not my fault and deep in our hearts we both know that there's nothing that either of us could of done to prevent this happening.
The Dr has advised us that we wait for 3-6months before we try again but how do you get over losing a bub you never got to meet and how do u remain positive in thinking that the next one will be OK?
I'm a bit of a mess at the moment and I've even noticed since finding out about my M/C that I find it harder now to let my 4y.o DD out of my sight.