My Story

Hi Aries,

We are so close in dates & weeks with our babies,
I'm also sorry that you lost your very loved baby Alexander,
I also hope you have some good support and someone to talk to when you need to
If you need to talk to someone im here
I dont know how/if i can use private messaging here
But i could message you somewhere else also if you like *hugs*

I go for my follow up app tomorrow, im nervous as anything and i will be on here
Telling what they said happened and what happens next
My man wants to TTC in January, but i want to sooner
So i dont know how it will go down, im agreeing with January because i dont want him
To change his mind and say longer if i start a disagreement about it
Lets see what happens!!
Thanks again every one it means alot xx

In relation to centrelink, it may help if you ask to speak to their social worker.. After my twins died I only dealt with the social worker, she was lovely. If a payment didn't go through or if something went wrong (which is always seems to) I just rang her instead of the call centre and she would find out what happened, do what needed to be done and call me back.. Just a thought as i know how terribly frustrating it is to talk to different call centre operators and often have to repeat the story.. I just know in my experience the social worker was really helpful.. Good luck

Thankyou for that information about centrelink, though my dad called them today and they apologized for calling as the payment has already been processed and i should get in sometime soon.

I will be happy i can then get things underway, and relax somewhat

I have written a blog on the results today, and im feeling much more relaxed and relieved although its hard knowing the cause is unknown.

Thankyou again.

Congratulations on the birth of your beautiful boy - Roman & my heart is with you that he had to fly away.

I'm feeling sad today, miss my Roman so much :crying::crying::crying::crying:
I cant sleep either, i uploaded pics of him to FB, yesterday, and not many of my friends ive given an invite to look, have commented even though they said they were looking... what did i do wrong, i got a few nice comments that he is adorable... but so many people have ignored it... and i feel sad, these are the only pics ill ever have of him, no more to show off to everyone, no first steps or first smiles to show off, it hurts.

Hi Jessica

I am so sorry you are feeling so low.
Hardly any of my friends and nearly all of my family never commented on reading Maddison's story or photos. I don't even know if anyone read it. I was really upset about it for a long time and still am a little. We also atteneded a walkathon in memory of Maddison only 4 people came with me. I have just come to realise that people just don't know what to say.. I don't think they realise how important it is to leave a comment. and sadly there life goes on, and it feels likes ours had stopped I would imagine you are like me and Roman is your every waking thought. I wan't you to knoe jessica that the days to get better and true friends will be there for you.

Look after your self I hope you are having more good days than sad
xx

Sending you big hugs:grouphug:

Rachel

Hi Rachel,

Thankyou for your reply, it helped knowing someone read how i feel & wanted to respond, you & me grieve in similar ways i think, yes Roman is on my mind 24/7 hes my every waking thought, before sleep and when i wake up i think of him the most, some days it feels surreal that this has happened, and the nights events repeat over and over in my mind.

I'm also saddened that your family & friends didnt comment on Maddison's story & photos, just saying a little comment, helps, it really does, and it shows they care, even if they dont know what to say, just a im thinking of you, or thanks for sharing with me, is nice.

I think many people dont want to know that babies can die, and that this does happen, so they want to ignore it or not be part of it, it really is sad because there needs to be more awareness and more understanding, much more.

Yeah, people who dont comment, they are enjoying life, having fun, as i always read & see, and i wonder if they acknowledge anything that goes on around them that is not always happy, because it feels that they dont want to know about anything unless its happy, but people should be there for you in bad times too, not just when everything is going great

I've had my good day today, i got out with my boyfriend and did some much needed shopping and a nice lunch and a movie, so i felt good today, and feeling better, but i know theres going to be more lows, but thats how it goes...

xx Thanks again, many hugs :) :hug::hug: