in 2005 around this time I lost my first child. Its hard to believe it is 5 years now.Looking back I certainly wasn't ready to be a mother at 20 yrs old but after the initial shock wore off I was excited.

I had him for 10.5 wks
I was going to be the best mum I could even if no one supported me
But it didnt turn out as planned.

I am now mother to a beautiful 14 month old boy and I am truelly happy and ready now,
But it doesnt stop me missing him
It doesnt stop me wondering who he would look like.
5 years still doesnt take away the pain of losing you