In July we were excited to learn we were expecting our second child after trying for about 6 months
Things progressed smoothly, we moved house (at 5 weeks preg) , I found a new GP to see and we were making plans for our new future....
On saturday 4th September 2010 (at 11 weeks pregnant) I went to the ER because when I went to the toilet and wiped I saw blood.
After 5 hours in emergency and lots of crying and my husband starting to get mad that they were making us wait
the triage nurse gave me a blood test and sent me home to see what happened (and told me I had no chance of seeing a dr or getting an u/s on the weekend.)
On Sunday 5th September, Fathers Day I had a miscarriage at home with my husband/son not really knowing what was going on. ( I told DH but he didnt REALLY understand what I would go through alone)
It was the hardest thing, to be alone, not knowing what was going to happen to me/the baby... all the what ifs and The overwhelmong grief that suddenly all our plans for the future had changed...
The only support I really had over that time was on here , The BB ladies as usual helped answer my many questions and offer support that I am so grateful for (Love you all xxxx)
my mum called but didnt really GET IT
My MIL didnt bother to call at all and still hasnt (which is a huge suprise to me)
and Evil Step MIL had her fair share of comments for me too
DH was an angel but now I feel so alone again
Everyone else is moving on
and im stuck
I lost our second baby at 11 weeks and 3 days
I will never forget that short time or DS kssing my belly willing you to grow
Sorry for your loss sweetie. I was watching and praying for you to have different outcome through this - and may your angel baby be watching down over you xx
I'm so sorry for the loss of your much hoped for baby. Sending you giant cyber hugs and the hope that you never feel alone again. Thinking of you. Be gentle on yourself.
Our baby is gone :(
(Love you all xxxx)
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Noah Thomas 20w5d 
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