I found out I was pregnant on nov 16th. I woke my husband up to tell him and we were both so happy and excited that we couldn't sleep that night. It was a happiness like no other. My due date was July 31,2008. I started to spot lightly on Thanksgiving day but had no cramping. I had an ultrasound that showed a blood clot in the sac with the baby and I was put on bed rest. On dec 8th we saw our baby's heartbeat and I can't believe the love I felt at that moment. I stood on bed rest and had another us the following monday. The blood clot had gotten bigger and the baby really didn't grow as much as he should have. The heartbeat was also only 99 bpm. My doctor told me to wait 2 days for another us but that it didn't look good. On wednesday the baby had no heartbeat and I felt like someone ripped my own heart out. This past friday I had a d&c because all my hormones were still really good and i was only lightly spottting. The doctor said it could take awhile to miscarry naturally. The whole ordeal is just horrible and I feel like I'm not even myself. Sometimes I just cry, especially when family calls and offer kind words. It just hurts so much it feels like it will never get bettter. No one really understands unless they've gone through this. I feel all of your pain and losses and pray for anyone who has gone through this.