I too was recently pregnant with my first pregnancy and had a missed miscarriage at 10.5 weeks, of twin baby boys who stopped growing at 9.5 weeks. I'd been on shaky ground since 6w1day when I had a big bleed - it was then I found out I was having twins Despite two strong heartbeats being found after the bleed and again one week later, and my obs telling me he felt "very reassurred" all my hoping against hope just wasn't enough. I tried as hard as possible to be strong from my 7 week scan until my next appointment at 10.5 weeks, and was just devastated when my obs didn't say anything to me for what felt like an eternity, only then to say there were no heartbeats. It was without doubt the worst moment of my life.
That was now 10 weeks ago. It's been hard for me, as it will be for you. I've cried bucket loads, the biggest tears ever, and have felt barely able to function - forever thinking that I just want my babies back. I'm slowly getting better now, though I still don't feel "right". But I'm trying each day to get that little bit better.
I'm thinking of you. Go easy on yourself, and don't let anyone tell you what to feel. It's important for you to grieve in exactly the way that comes naturally to you. I found my most comfort in my DH. He's the one person who truly understands how I feel. I hope you find that comfort to. Look after each other, hold each other and just be close. Take your time.
Despite two strong heartbeats being found after the bleed and again one week later, and my obs telling me he felt "very reassurred" all my hoping against hope just wasn't enough. I tried as hard as possible to be strong from my 7 week scan until my next appointment at 10.5 weeks, and was just devastated when my obs didn't say anything to me for what felt like an eternity, only then to say there were no heartbeats. It was without doubt the worst moment of my life.
Go easy on yourself, and don't let anyone tell you what to feel. It's important for you to grieve in exactly the way that comes naturally to you. I found my most comfort in my DH. He's the one person who truly understands how I feel. I hope you find that comfort to. Look after each other, hold each other and just be close. Take your time.
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