i feel so empty and depressed and the only way to get relief is to hear and be encouraged by others who have experienced a loss just like i just did. i went for my routine prenatal check up and the doc couldn't find the baby ,s heart beat. since then , i have been living in one pain filled world which i cant come to terms with yet .took 4days in the hospital before i could deliver my dead baby .those were four days of unimaginable pain and anguish knowing that my dear precious one was lying there without breath i couldn't eat and had to be given drugs to sleep.After 12 hours of excruciatingly painful and hard labor my baby was brought out and my heart broke when i saw how tiny and like a doll he looked with a full head of hair already. its been very hard for me especially with my fiancee far away in china workin and cant come to be with me.: