I think you really need to put yourself first for the next six months. It will be sooo hard but it's what you need to do. Concentrate on getting better. Do it for your little ones and yourself.

As Div said, work with DOCs and any other professionals you are with. I am sure they will give you a plan to follow. Stick with your medication. Keep talking to people and asking for help - and hugs - when you need them.

It will seem impossible but YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!! You are a strong mumma and this will be worth it in the end.

Maybe you could try writing a little letter to your boys every night, telling them how much you love them and your plans for your future together. It's not to send to them, but later, in years to come, it might be something you want to share with them.

You have shown such courage reaching out here. I admire you

Stay strong x