I had a similar dilemma when applying for uni. I'd love to be a midwife, but I ended up studying nursing. Main reason : DH pointed out to me that I'd need to be able to switch off if a birth ends (and there is no nice way to say it...) in a stillbirth. I just wouldn't be able to cope. I already work where I nurse palliative patients, so I'm able to switch off there and would be ok (I hope!) with nursing. I can understand and see his point.

Would you be able to trade not being able to take holidays for not being able to take yourself out of the picture?

Best of luck xx