Ok. It was awful.

I went thirty mins early. It was packed, probably close to 15 or more kids in there and two carers. I signed her in and noticed she was the youngest by about six months. The girl that greeted me could tell it was my first time and just asked how old she was and if she could walk. I put her down, kissed her and told the girl I would check in five minutes to make sure she was ok. When I left she looked so overwhelmed and was just standing there looking so shocked.

I went back after probably two minutes and she was sitting on the floor bawling her eyes out. I heard the other girl say "she is ok she just fell over" ad the one who greeted me went over and picked her up (after she saw me I think). I went back in and took her off the girl and calmed her down. I asked the girl if any other mums fund it this hard and she said "no most just check through the window and then go away" now I know me going in probably makes her job harder but Tiah is one! And it was our first time!

While I am in there I notice two other kids crying an another just sitting in the corner sucking a pencil??? I put her back down (even though I know at this point I am not leaving her here I just didn't know what to do). She starts crying so hard she doesn't breathe (mums know this cry). The girl picked her up again but that was enough for me

I burst into tears, grabbed her and ran out of the gym. Ah so dramatic

After I calmed down I realized what had bothered me the most. They didnt ask me what her name is. How could I even consider leaving my baby with someone who doesn't even want to know her name!?!?!

The image of her crying her heart out in a room full of kids, holding a pretend can of corn will be in my nightmares tonight.

(I know I am overreacting and se probably would have been fine, and other kids go to crèche and daycare and they are fine... But I am just not ready and needed to vent a bit. )


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