Oh Kim you are a great mummy! I had heaps of trouble BF DD too and felt terribly guilty at putting her on formula but she is a happy healthy rugrat now (and I'm so far managing to BF DS too!). Motherhood is a wonderful yet strange thing I think. The feeling of responsibility can be so overwhelming at times. But you DD is getting food and that is all that matters, no matter how it comes. Yeah BF might be great but it certainly doesn't always work out and you just do what you have to do, there is absoloutly nothing wrong with that at all.

DD used to scream heaps too and DS has only in the last 4-5 weeks settled down from the evening cries too. In actual fact I think often he was just tired and just wanted to be put down and go to sleep, too much stimulation and overtiredness was making him grumpy!

I tried a formalised mothers group a few times and hated it too. I met a lovely woman one day in the doc's waiting room. Her DS was 12 days younger than DD and we just got chatting, ended up exchanging numbers and formed our own great little mums group. It has been the best thing for me. I've found that it's easier once you have a bit of a chat to another mum in a park, shop or somewhere and you might get along well and have something in common (babies at least!) to then just pluck up the courage and suggest meeting up again sometimes. It's hard to do but I find that the other mum usually is so happy at the suggestion too and probably going through exactly the same feelings as you too.

And every bub is happy to see their dad I reckon! And they are so more relaxed too - just a change, and hey, it would be bad if they weren't so happy to see them!

You will be fine, doing an awesome job. Keep up the good work.