I am also a bit worried bc if I try and imagine having another baby, if I imagine the baby to be a girl I think 'Oh, that would be nice, how cute, a sister for DD'. But if I imagine it to be a boy I think 'Hmm...not ready' and can't really imagine loving a boy like I do DD. Which is worrying bc I actually think I will have a boy next for some reason. Will I not love a boy as much?? I have no idea why I think this! Maybe it's just because I can't imagine it because I only have a girl (which is weird because I have never had a sister, I have 4 younger brothers, so I shouldn't be scared!). But I feel like I would much prefer a girl. I feel like I couldn't be as close to a boy as I am with DD. How awful of me!!
That's not awful of you, it is HONEST of you.

And if I am completely honest... I could have written the exact same thing, except I only have one sister, no brothers! And if I am even more honest... I still freak out every now and then when I think about this little boy baby growing inside me.

What do I know about boys???? What kind of relationship will we have? With DD, we can go shopping, we can do girlie stuff... what about mother and son relationships?? How will I build that?

But I figure there must be capacity within me to love a boy just as much as a girl, or else God wouldn't have given me this precious gift, to love and nurture.

I just have to trust that my mothering instincts will take over and I will be just as smitten with him as I was with DD when she was born.