it's pretty normal to feel a bit of dislike for your baby after so many sleepless nights.
If she's really making you angry it's ok to put her down somewhere safe and leave her to scream for a bit while you step out into your garden and get your cool back.
Giving her a massage might help her relax and sleep for longer. Have you tried co-sleeping? You might get a better nights sleep if you only have to roll over to comfort her instead of getting out of bed.
gosh sweets, we've all been there. I can tell you that I have yelled at my baby to "effing go to sleep" a time or two. Doesn't help, but made me feel better for the 3 seconds before the guilts kicked in.
can you pop her in her cot & give yourself 10 mins breathing space? It's not cry it out, its not neglect, its head space for you, its time to get calm & come back just that teensy bit refreshed.
at the worst of moments like this, I have popped DD in her cot & gone off for a shower / cry & then came out feeling ready to tackle her again.
Best of luck gorgeous, its hard stuff this & you're doing your very best.
xox
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