lilias - THIS IS EXACTLY how i am feeling!!!! Soo undecided.

The thing is I only have only DD atm, planning to TTC next year but I am thinking ahead as I am not getting any younger.

Thing is, I remember that although we couldnt afford to go to camping every year like every other student, that one time mum let me go, I cherished it and still remember it to this day.

That new pair of Nike I got at year 10 (when everyone already wore them at year 7 while i had to put up with Big W dunlops that were 3 sizes too big so that i can grow into them). I cherished.

Having said that I still remember getting teased for not being able to afford new shoes, teased for having to wear second hand uniform and mostly teased for not being able to afford the pay school fees. These things are what I do not want to put upon my children.

Ive never grown up to want nice clothes, ive never pampered myself (except for my wedding) and i never regret it!

Having said all this, Ive always imagined having a large family as we didnt have any relos we were close to, we didnt have grandparents or cousins and that is why I alway envy people with large families and how much fun they have when they gather together.