OMG i feel like a monster - how could i

[meegm]

Thank you so much everyone

You know i think thats what makes it all the worse the look on there face when you do it, its true heart break, and that he still comes to me for cuddles after ive done it...

Im heading back to work for 2 days a week next month i think it will be good for me to get out of here sometimes i feel like al i do is get up go in the lounge then stay there until tea time then the kitchen then back to the bedroom.... and taking 2 out at this age can be even more stressful than staying home .. Im in a rut this mum thing is still pretty new to me...

thanks again girls.. feel a bit better now...