i just need to have a little vent here.

well, in the last couple of days jelly has discovered the joy of pulling herslef up on object to try to stand, or even just standing up by herself without anything to hold onto - of course she goes straight back down again. the thing is in the last three days she has hit her head hard at least three times. one of these times was particularly bad - i expected to see her scull crushed in ( as it was, the shape has changed slightly and she is now more pointy on top.) despite all of this she appears to to healthy and happy, without anything seriously worrying.

the thing is i just don't know how i am meant to cope with all of this head banging! it is stressing me out and i feel so guilty and horrible and panicking whenever she takes a spill, like it is all my fault and i am the worst mum in the world.

logically i know this is not true, but i cann't help feeling that it is my job to protect her from everything - but how am i meant to protect her from herself? on one hand i hope she can find her sense of balance and starts walking soon, but then i think of all the other scrapes she can get herself into once she does.

wow - i really wasn't prepared for this side of parenting.