i'm not sure that refocus is exactly the right word but basically i feel like i have nothing left in the tank at the moment.

DS isn't a great sleeper (argh, i dunno how many times i've written that in here ) - he wakes every 40m to 2hrs through the night. probably my fault because he usually feeds to sleep & feeds back to sleep when he wakes. DP used to be able to resettle him but these days DS just screams louder & louder until i go to him.

i've been trying so hard to be good about the sleep thing & i try not to talk or whinge about how tired i am. i don't believe in CIO or CC methods (and don't think they'd work for DS anyways) & so i try to focus on believe that DS will sleep longer when he's ready to. we co-sleep so i get as much sleep as poss.

but now he's been sick since saturday (just a nasty cold) & his sleeping has been waaay worse. not such a big deal in itself because it's temporary but my energy reserves were craptastic before & now they're just non-existant. how do i get my mojo (for want of a better word!) back? i'm losing all hope that he will ever sleep better & while i could try & have a 40 min nap while he does this afternoon, there's no way for me to get what i really need - and that's more than 2 hours of sleep at a time at night!

sorry for the pity party here - i really shouldn't complain, it all feels so trivial