Thanks for your thoughts everyone, especially you Iris, I know you have been through all this (and worse) and understand the emotional rollercoaster it is. I appreciate your comments about the selfish feelings and as much as I said I would be prepared for anything when I had Felix, the reality is I want him to be healthy for the rest of his life..That is great Alana is such a big feeder, she sounds like she is really doing well..Felix ate some homemade icecream yesterday ..and the Grandmas took turns feeding him his food..they were amazed at how little he eats!

I had a wonderful Christmas yesterday because it is the first day for over a week that I haven't stressed about what Felix is eating or trying to feed him, nor talked about it to anyone as some of the people there didn't know about the tests, because we don't want to stress anyone out until we know something for definate..so it was good for me..I was the most relaxed I have been for a LONG time..
Pictures of our Christmas:

http://share.shutterfly.com/osi.jsp?i=EeANmzVqzaMmzCZg

Hope everyone had a great Christmas