I think i was still a bit scared of being a mum when jacob was delivered by emergancy C section.... they wrapped him up and I met him straight away but was still pretty WOWED out about the whole thing..... they wheeled me back to my room and I went to sleep and he was in the nursery.... about 1or 2ish in the morning they bought him in and she opened my gown and put him on my chest to nuzzle in.......... ooooohhhhhhhhhhhh and at that moment I met my new best friend!!!!!

It took another few weeks for me to get used to everything and then one day I had the most IMMENSE feeling of love and protectivness.... that was a very awesome feeling... I was very scared that I was going to be a terrible mother..... but I think i am doing GREAT now!

Yep... bonding is a hard thing to define... to me its just about what is in ones heart

xxoo