About half way through my pregnancy, my Dp and I split for a short time... So my main concern was how i was going to raise a little one by my self? Would i wake up at night to her? What happens if i wasn't enough?
Reality : I did it by my self - an excelled! It's surprising how much energry you have when you have a little one to look after... And waking up during the night hasn't been a problem, the moment she stirrs i'm awake! I find it harder to deal with when Dp is around, it's like he's stealing my time with her!
i also didn't expect the straight away bond that i got, from the minute i was pregnant, she was my all, my little princess! and then when i pulled her out into the world the bond and love got even stronger... The instint it was like the world stopped and it was just me and her! It's jsut incredible, and i'm getting highly emotional writing this!
I thought I'd use cloth nappies, bubba would follow an exact routine that I worked out, sleep all night etc etc
So with all of that it was a lot harder first time round than I expected but also a whole lot more rewarding. I too never imagined I could love my baby like I did. I thought I would want to work but have given that up so that I can be there completely for my babies! I love being there for them and teaching them and I love the cuddles. I love that Louis is at an age now where he's my little buddy and we laugh over all sorts of silly things! I love having Dylan now and really appreciating every moment as I know how quickly it will go!
I'm also extremely tired and have pretty much no time for anything other than the kids and the housework, washing and cooking! LOL! But as with all of you I wouldn't change it for the world! You do forget all the hard times so quickly - it really all does happen in the blink of an eye!
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