Oh my, I've been waking up in the middle of the night before Xavier and then wondering where he is (he's in his cot) but everytime I think that he's in bed with me, and I feel around really gently moving sheets etc looking for him, and then I start to wake up better and realise, lol his in his own bed.
I do the EXACT same thing!

Ambah and Sez- Definitely agree and feel the same as you guys..I don't feel like 'myself' anymore- well not my old self anyway. Guess I'm a 'different' self that's all.

Another thing I didn't really imagine (to this extent anyway), was that everyone that comes over to visit, clearly says they are coming over to see Laila. And that's who they ask about on the phone etc. What about meee?! No one says how am I going! It feels like I am not important enough anymore! I know it sounds silly..Maybe that's something that contributes to the loss of self thing, as it feels like people don't really recognise me as a person anymore...
(I think I have just written a whole heap of rubbish that doesn't make sense! )