Not sure I really understand Mbear but in my mind (& my belief system) I believe that I have made agreements with my children (as they have with me) & we are destined to travel this particular journey together for reasons that will be revealed in good time SO it is my strong desire to get us all here together..... just as I agreed I would. I also have found a love in Hunter that I never knew to be possible & I want to give him the gift of siblings, give them the gift of Hunter.... It is about love at the end of the day.....