Hello ladies,
My name is Canary and I have not been here for a while. In January 2008, I joined the bleeding in preg forum, then graduated to the TTC after MC, then PAML. Then I lost the use of my computer when we moved house, and got out of the habit of visiting BB. On New Years Day 2009, our beautiful baby boy was born and I have been blissfully happy ever since.

Unfortunately now, I could do with some encouraging advice because I am going back to work on 3rd August and am finding the idea of separation really hard. I know that every mum goes through this when she goes back to work, but all my friends can say is ''it's hard''. We went to the nursery today for an induction and although i think that Oscar will love playing there all day and will be quite happy, I drove home in floods of tears at the thought of leaving him. I did wonder about extending my Mat leave (too late now), but I think that it will be just as hard whenever I go back.

I am sure that nature did not intend for mothers and babies to be separated and that must account for some of my feelings. I even considered stopping work all together, but I have worked far too hard to give up my career and I think that in the long term I would regret the decision.

I hope that I have found the right place for this post. If I should be posting elsewhere (is there a whole forum for back to work???), please let me know. I would love to hear about other people's experiences.

Thanks for 'listening!'