oh joy!

Just wanted to vent about my day.

Nothing terrible happened but it was the cream on the crust of an extremely tiring week 1/2. At the beginning of it I came down with a virus, then Isaac, 11 months, got an ear infection was on antibiotics. These gave him tummy aches but two visits to the doctor confirmed that they were doing something. Yay! Went off food though, and now an inflamed throat has him not wanting to eat because swallowing is painful, yet he wants the food. On panadol intermittently to treat pain.

Hubby has now got my virus (bad cold, bag of tissues etc) and son seems to be reverting back to his usual grizzly clingy ear infection self. Didn't get to eat anything post breakfast til 2pm as soup was disgusting, then pizza delivery car broke down and had to go and buy other food. Started vacuuming son's cot as it was dusty but he just coughed and coughed as I couldn't leave him, and now of course he has the inflamed throat as well, probably due to the virus. Left vacuum cleaner and bits and pieces all over his room to be put away when hubby got home.

Entire lounge covered in toys but all he wants to do is hang off my leg and cry. Absolutely worn out from being stuck at home due to sickness - the only place he's been out is the doctors 3 times in the last two weeks.

Silly things tipped me over the edge - over filled the vaporiser and water went on the cupboard in his room. Hubby home late from work and has now gone out again. Cat came inside and I locked her in the garage as I can't face her jumping on the piano and knocking over the photo frames again Feel like I'm gonna snap at any moment. Really need a break but am still getting over the virus myself - ie I feel trapped.

Could tell it had gone too far when son is sitting at my feet screaming in pain?/clingy and I am just completely ignoring him and wishing he would just go away. (I DO love him he is so precious! Just can't do any more of today.) He also only started crawling last week as well and is now all over the place and we are still adjusting to this - every minute we are putting more stuff away and trying to stop him grabbing stuff. Even if his room is full of toys he will see the one thing that is NOT a toy

Am going out tomorrow morning to my post natal depression group, but anxiety has me worried about fitting the breastfeeds around it.

Thanks for listening

xojess