To be honest it came down to the fact that no one can guarantee me they are perfectly safe. There are going to be casualties for "the greater good"
I decided I can always vaccinate later if they can show me that they arent filled with heavy metals, toxic preservatives and additives and wont cause long term damage to my child.

I can't unvaccinate my child, but I can always vaccinate them later.

I dont think injecting diseases into their blood stream is a good way to build an immunity. The body has many ways to fight off infection before it reaches the blood stream. So for me it was inject something right into their blood, or risk them coming in contact with the illness in public, having their body not fight it off, and then also having a complication arise from the illness.

Breastfeeding and eating a varied diet and including foods that boost the immune system is a better protection in my eyes then injecting god knows what right into my newborns blood.

My middle child is vaccinated and has autism. We have autism elsewhere in my family. I didnt want the vaccines to trigger autism in my youngest and that is how my research started. I went on to decide to decline all vaccines based on my research (not solely online, I read peer reviewed studies and books etc)

You need to make a decision you can live with. If I vaccinated and my son was diagnosed with Autism i would have always wondered if I could have prevented it. If he had a vaccine injury i would have felt responsible. If he contracts a "vaccine preventable" illness, and goes on to have complications (which is a risk still even after being vaccinated) I know that i have given him the best tools in beating it by his diet and breastfeeding him for over 2 years and not overloading his immune system with vaccines.

Its a very personal choice.