well we are in debt trying to crawl my way out not alot but enough just a few hundred. Every slice of bread is calculated at this point i owe this kids 3 weeks pocket money and are struggling a bit once Christmas is passed i hope we can re balance everything.

yesterday i spent $11.40 on a train fair to get my growth scan and i felt so horrible because i could NOT afford the $25 for dd to go out to youth group on Friday night as they are doing an outing or something and i was spending $11.40 on a train fare. I even owe the ex some money too. For driving dd to places to cover petrol. feeling ashamed. But know ill get through it. Hopefully soon as i need to buy another car seat.

hair cut that was so long ago i wish i could just for once, not be concerned and buy a coffee and a meal at the shops for me and hubbie and not fear where the money is coming from.

I have NEVER EVER even been to the movies with hubbie that would be an awesome treat for us like gold. His birthdays coming up and just like myn that passed we dont have the cash for it. unless we create more debt. He wants a bike and i just simply cant afford it and the helmet He has never owned a bike before.