you dont sound up your self at all. rather disapointed - as i am - that our goverment seems to be content with putting the lives of both unborn childrend and mothers alike at risk- i say at risk becuase how meany women who dont want to birth at hospital will 'go it alone' and have something go wrong (that a trained midwife would be able to assist with). i have to admit i'm not brave enough to have a home birth but i hope that you get the home birth you have dreamed about and long for. as well as the goverment opens its eyes and see's home birth as a very viable option as well as hospital.