Tash - words cannot say how sad it is that your son Leo is not with you any longer. I can imagine how difficult it would have been coming home without him. I wish that all of us here at BB could give you a huge hug and help you with your grief and sorrow. I am thinking of Leo and your family. If you feel that you ever need additional support, please don't hesitate to talk to a therapist about how you are feeling. I'm not sure if you are religious but I imagine Leo being carried on the backs of angels wings.