my god, that is so devastating. words cannot say just how devastating. i don't know you from adam hon, but woman to woman, i am soooo sorry for your deep deep loss. oh sweetheart, that is just so awful.

cry your heart out, do whatever you need to get it out, don't let anyone make you "suck it up" - your pain is real.

i hope you work out your own way to remember your special little darling Leo, you will never forget him.