Hi

I am just gunna throw something out - whilst Calmbirth is an option for you - what about some sessions with a psychologist for the lead up - help you with the visualisation etc for a one - on - one? Your fears are perfectly understandable.

Good luck - hop on the Calmbirth website and e-mail them - they will be able to help. They have the weekends in Bowral but for instance there was an associated practitioner here in Canberra that ran a similar course too as part of Peter whathisnames course.