When I was pregnant with DD, I would have these dreams that I gave birth and she was perfect and we got to keep her with us and go home.
I'd wake up sobbing because I knew that wasn't true. I only saw her for a few minutes before she was taken away.

With this bub, I'm having dreams that fill me with so much peace. I get my VBAC. But, I ALWAYS give birth outside. In the sunlight and open air. It's a beautiful experience. A few times it's been my childhood home backyard, or a few special places to DH and I.
It's just occuring to me now, but it's always somewhere where I feel safe.

I love the fact that I birth outside. Being a July bub it won't happen. Being rural I have to be in a hospital.

Thoughts??