I suffered birth trauma with my first two sons (2 different hospitals in Brisbane).
3rd son was a healing process for me but still went to hospital at the last moment because of fear of bleeding to death or need for oxygen for baby etc.

Fourth son due in 3 weeks, aiming for a freebirth at home with my doula. I asked my doc for script for syntocinon and have that in my fridge for peace of mind/safety etc.

However it is terrible to walk around with such a fear and anxiety of childbirth. Cognitions I think we learn pick up even as little girls.

Why is pregnany and childbirth not treated like a natural and instinctual process and treated like some nasty medical procedure?

My first two births were the most dehumanising and brutal experiences of my life. I believe that freebirthing is the only option for me. There is not many choices with regards to this area of womens health and the more appealing options that may allow for a more natural birth are either not made easily accessible or are extremely costly.