Hi all,

I went to see my m/w last week and she was fantastic. We talked about a natural third stage of labour, and baby-led attachment. I left there feeling on top of the world, actually looking forward to experiencing something I will have some control over this time around.

I didn't expect the guilt. I feel guilty for wanting to do it 'better' the second time around. I worry that I will have a better bond with this baby than I initially had with ds- which is essentially what i want but that sounds terrible.

I almost feel like I am giving this baby a better start to life than I gave ds- which, again, I suppose I am. But I feel awful about it. poor kid was already my 'mistake' baby- I have learnt from the mistakes I made the first time around, so the ride will be smoother for all of us next time around. But that seems so unfair to him.

Like I said, I was totally unprepared for this feeling. Anyone have any insight for me?

ETA- Sorry for that atrocious spelling mistake in the title