Aimz I was actually worried about scaring first time birthers.

I think I need to clarify. My birth was awesome and I was happy with care providers, my own abilities, the progress, the bonding and yes I wanted to do it again...it was just I couldn't process it properly in the days and weeks after. I kept revisiting the 'otherness' of it, and that feeling of it being a huge shift in body and mind.

I tend to over analyze things and I got pretty lonely as a new mum, so maybe that comes into play too.

I always, always encourage women to talk about their experiences because I think we rarely hear the many shades of variation in emotion that comes with being a new mum.