Don't feel guilty, we all do what we need to do. End result is most important!
I had an epidural cause for me personally I think why experience pain if I don't need to. I don't feel anymore or less proud cause the fact is I still delivered a beautiful little girl.

We all need to just set our own goals and expectations and be proud of what we ourselves have acheived rather than comparing cause everyones idea of birthing can vary quite alot.