Krysalyss - I too felt very traumatised after my first birth, due to a long, difficult birth (gas/peth/epidural/forceps/tear and stitches) and really struggled to connect with my son after it. To be really honest, I was actually just more relieved to finally have it over and went into shock and found it difficult to want to connect with him. I found it so painful to get around for a good 6 weeks after having him.I ended up with PND and to this day still find it difficult at times to connect to this son.

My 3rd was an induction at my request with Gas a peth, but it felt great even though I had stitches I still felt positive and happy with the outcome.

My 3rd was amazing/awesome/life changing. He was completely natural in every sense of the word and liek Kelly I felt so normal after just a 90 min birth that I was almost feeling like I had not given birth! The babymmon period with him is still going 3 months later and I would love to have the opportunity to go through it again in a few years time.

So I pretty much come from the highs and the lows of it. The Highs are amazing, but the lows can be very difficult to process.