They are some really great suggestions Inanna, I'll make those changes.

I guess I need to be honest with myself as to why I feel fear.

I feel fear because I'm worried that waiting will mean that I am risking this baby too. There is no reason (medical or otherwise) for me to feel this way. I just want to be a 'normal' pregnant woman with the 'normal' pregnant jitters but I'm not.

I detest fear, I want it gone. I just don't know how. Each time I think of the wait leading up to labour my heart flutters and I get nervous. I wish I knew the answers.

Don't get me wrong, I'm doing much better this time then at the same stage last time, I feel much more certain of my ability. I just want to keep it together a bit longer.

Spring x